our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.

I was sitting in church on my drum stool yesterday just before we started playing and thinking how I wished we were about to play some arcade fire songs cuz that's what I wanted to do more than anything right at that time and that just maybe God digs the arcade fire too. I mean seriously. how formatted and routine is worship (in music form) these days?? If you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love has fallen from me.